Real talk about playing music

I haven't written a song in almost 10 years, nor have I revisited them.

It has been terrifying to attempt an open mic since I blanked out the first time and ran off the stage after the first verse.

But on Monday, something came through, I came home, and I wrote a song out of nowhere.

It felt like a channelled message, I played until my fingers hurt, and I sang it with tears streaming

down my face.

Then I got a message from above (I call her source) and she told me to sing it at the memorial for a dear family friend tomorrow.

Every part of me said, "I am not ready." I sat with the SPARK method and worked through my fears.

1. that it didn't feel SAFE to sing in front of others.

2. that PLAYING in front of people had to be perfect

3. that taking ACTION was attached to at least months of practice

4. In REFLECTION, I noticed that I was given an opportunity with a timeframe to step into this version of me I had always seen as myself....a musician.

5. that to KINDLE this fire, I need to lead with love.

   
   

So I recorded the song, shared it with the world to overcome visibility (nothing bad will happen)

and reach out to my community so that I can stand at the front of an auditorium and sing this song

In honour of the people we have lost, we are never alone.

*****So what are you scared of doing?*****

I want to cheer you on, as you have all supported me.